The Struggle Are Real

bismilahirahmanirahim

the struggle are real

i want to tell everybody

how sick I am

how tired I am

how bad I am

how I want someone to help me

but I can't

at this moment

yeah, you know thousand people love you but

at this stage

nobody stand up with you

and I that I can do is crying

and crying badly

feeling useless

i hate pills

i hate any kind of ubat ubatan that they force me to take

i hate the moment they said

i soo manja

cannot solve my own feeling

i just hate everything

i hate i have nobody really understand the pain

i hate when i cant tell even my bestfriend how sick i am

i hate my self

i just want to end this

i hate when people says sebab tak solat lah ni lemah iman

tak jaga solat ni

tak jaga relationship dengan manusia

you know what?

get lost

i didnt need toxic people like you guys

stop preach me

stop ask to me to do my ibadah because you just dont know how struggle i am

i hate everything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

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Nisrina Syaurah